{"id":14748,"date":"2017-08-09T04:02:19","date_gmt":"2017-08-09T08:02:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/?p=14748"},"modified":"2017-08-09T04:09:17","modified_gmt":"2017-08-09T08:09:17","slug":"time-and-space-anxiety-and-aches","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/?p=14748","title":{"rendered":"Time and Space &#8211; Anxiety and Aches"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s 12:45 AM.<\/p>\n<p>I can&#8217;t sleep. Part of it comes from jet lag; I couldn&#8217;t keep my eyes open at 6:30 pm and then awoke not long after feeling like my house was being broken into. Turned out (I think) just to be an anxiety dream.<\/p>\n<p>And there&#8217;s plenty to be anxious over. The world feels like we are in end of days and the politicians, diplomats, and generals are all maniacs looking to blow it up.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/08\/IMG_8806.gif\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-14752\" src=\"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/08\/IMG_8806.gif\" alt=\"\" width=\"245\" height=\"140\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m worried. I&#8217;m even terrified. \u00a0And not just about the geopolitical realm; the clear and present danger of climate change, of our head in the sand impact on the natural world feels like we are careening toward an ecological end as well. \u00a0Creatures come and go; ask the dinosaurs. \u00a0Or we could if they hadn&#8217;t been wiped out. \u00a0But we seem to be the architects of our own destruction&#8230; and on a variety of fronts.<\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"1170\" height=\"878\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/SU31c0BkKzI?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>I can&#8217;t sleep. \u00a0And it&#8217;s only partly due to jet lag.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m tempted to go out for a run in the hopes of at least quieting the whispers in my head of worry. But in truth it&#8217;s too late on the 8th and too early on the 9th to be running the sidewalks nearby. It feels unsafe in the neighborhood to be doing that.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve got an alarm set for 4 am to go out but that&#8217;s asking a lot of the post bar crowd and the crazed homeless and downtrodden population. I&#8217;m lucky to have what I have, family and friends, a roof over my head&#8230; and yet the anxiety of it all weighs me down.<\/p>\n<p>The distance between us and them&#8230; between here and there&#8230; the beginning and the end? It feels vast in some ways and far too near\u00a0otherwise. It&#8217;s that highway hypnosis, the inability to tell how fast and how far you&#8217;re going on a straight line open road. And this feels like a straight line to this:<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/08\/IMG_8804.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-14753\" src=\"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/08\/IMG_8804-300x127.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"300\" height=\"127\" srcset=\"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/08\/IMG_8804-300x127.jpg 300w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/08\/IMG_8804-768x324.jpg 768w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/08\/IMG_8804-1024x433.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/08\/IMG_8804-830x351.jpg 830w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/08\/IMG_8804-230x97.jpg 230w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/08\/IMG_8804-350x148.jpg 350w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/08\/IMG_8804.jpg 1920w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>My legs hurt from this past weekend&#8217;s race. \u00a0My soul hurts from this past week&#8217;s events.<\/p>\n<p>I can&#8217;t sleep. And it&#8217;s only partly due to jet lag.<\/p>\n<p>Sigh.<\/p>\n<p>Don&#8217;t let it end this way.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s 12:45 AM. I can&#8217;t sleep. Part of it comes from jet lag; I couldn&#8217;t keep my eyes open at 6:30 pm and then awoke not long after feeling like my house was being broken into. Turned out (I think) just to be an anxiety dream. And there&#8217;s plenty to be anxious over. 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