{"id":24192,"date":"2018-04-16T00:13:46","date_gmt":"2018-04-16T04:13:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/?p=24192"},"modified":"2018-04-16T00:26:41","modified_gmt":"2018-04-16T04:26:41","slug":"a-late-night-confessional","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/?p=24192","title":{"rendered":"Pre-Race Jitters: A late night confessional&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>My eyes were watering. I had trouble concentrating. I was tired, had been all day partly due to the next door quinceanera Saturday night that went until 4 am Sunday morning. You can see it on my face, the bags under my eyes exceeding all carry-on allotments.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Tonight, I couldn\u2019t stay up so I went to sleep at 8 pm.<\/p>\n<p>It\u2019s now almost mightnight. I\u2019ve been wide awake for an hour or two, my ridiculous early to bedtime leaving me power catnap refreshed. My alarm is set for 4 am. I listen to the howling wind and pelting freezing rain outside my Airbnb\u2019s window. I preferred Pitbull\u2019s Give me Everything that made a few replays in last night\u2019s playlist.<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019m worried about the race.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>The cold, the rain, the wind, the cold, the waits, the logistics, the cold and the cold.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>I\u2019m also worried about finishing in time to get back to my AirBNB and then get to the airport in time for my moved forward flight time of 5:35 pm. I\u2019ve planned this poorly&#8230; and if I miss that flight I don\u2019t know how I\u2019ll get back to LA in time to catch my flight to Nepal.<\/p>\n<p>But if I\u2019m being honest I&#8217;m even more concern about how I\u2019ll feel before, during, and after the race.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>I\u2019m contemplating skipping Boston because I\u2019m so worried about everything.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>I\u2019m a worrier by nature but I have this weird knot in my stomach, an ill omen feeling, like this is all a horrible mistake.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>As a running trip, Boston\u2019s been a bust so far.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>I didn\u2019t do much sightseeing and today I really did almost nothing, one of those wasting the day away things that would make that watchdog in THE PHANTOM TOLLBOOTH bark incessantly and lecturingly at me for killing time.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Tick?<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Tock?<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Whatever his name was the clock inside him made the opposite sound.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>I feel like I\u2019ve let everyone and everything down.<\/p>\n<p>As travel goes though I did get to catch up with some amazing people, some I hadn\u2019t seen in ages.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>But even there I felt like I had let folks down with less than dazzling conversation, less than sparkling repartee, less than bon mots.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>I\u2019m feeling scared and anxious and this raging storm which feels oh so King Lear has me wondering if I am not that mad king refusing a hovel, a hat, or a helping hand.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>I fear I\u2019m reaping what I sow and the harvest is regret and wrong headedness.<\/p>\n<p>But outside of all that, how\u2018s the night going, Kevin?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>My eyes were watering. I had trouble concentrating. I was tired, had been all day partly due to the next door quinceanera Saturday night that went until 4 am Sunday morning. You can see it on my face, the bags under my eyes exceeding all carry-on allotments.\u00a0 Tonight, I couldn\u2019t stay up so I went [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-24192","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24192","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=24192"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24192\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=24192"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=24192"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=24192"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}