{"id":29885,"date":"2018-12-15T16:52:59","date_gmt":"2018-12-15T21:52:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/?p=29885"},"modified":"2018-12-15T16:52:59","modified_gmt":"2018-12-15T21:52:59","slug":"jacksonville-marathon","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/?p=29885","title":{"rendered":"Jacksonville Marathon"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Given the season, the best way to sum up today might be this clip from &#8220;A Christmas Story&#8221; (1983):<\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/11q4q3S57jE?start=18\" width=\"560\" height=\"315\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen=\"allowfullscreen\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>What had started out so well, ended off the rails.\u00a0 And while that may be a bit of a mouthful, it also could very well be the title of my autobiography.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve run Jacksonville before.\u00a0 You can read about it <a href=\"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/?p=20380\">here<\/a> and <a href=\"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/?p=66\">here<\/a>.\u00a0 The course remained the same today; I felt fairly confident as we gathered like lemmings at the starting line.\u00a0 Today, I thought, might be a BQ kind of day.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_055618.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-29907\" src=\"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_055618-300x225.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"300\" height=\"225\" srcset=\"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_055618-300x225.jpg 300w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_055618-768x576.jpg 768w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_055618-1024x768.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_055618-660x495.jpg 660w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_055618-450x338.jpg 450w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a> <a href=\"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_063159.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-29905\" src=\"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_063159-300x225.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"300\" height=\"225\" srcset=\"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_063159-300x225.jpg 300w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_063159-768x576.jpg 768w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_063159-1024x768.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_063159-660x495.jpg 660w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_063159-450x338.jpg 450w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a> <a href=\"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_065913.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-29901\" src=\"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_065913-300x225.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"300\" height=\"225\" srcset=\"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_065913-300x225.jpg 300w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_065913-768x576.jpg 768w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_065913-1024x768.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_065913-660x495.jpg 660w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_065913-450x338.jpg 450w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>I didn&#8217;t take many photos on the run as I was trying really, really hard to just focus on the miles.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_083322.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-29895\" src=\"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_083322-300x225.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"300\" height=\"225\" srcset=\"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_083322-300x225.jpg 300w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_083322-768x576.jpg 768w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_083322-1024x768.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_083322-660x495.jpg 660w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_083322-450x338.jpg 450w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>The opening 19 miles I was on a rock solid pace for a 2020 Boston Qualifying time, a sub 3:10 or just barely sub anyway.<\/p>\n<p>But then the &#8220;oh, fudge&#8221; happened.\u00a0 I felt my pace slowing, I felt me slowing, and as I did the math, I realized I was going to finish over 3:10.\u00a0 It was a demoralizing moment and once the time kept ticking and my steps kept coming up short mile after mile, once I found myself in the hole so deep I wasn&#8217;t going to be able to rally out of it, that&#8217;s when things got really ugly.<\/p>\n<p>As calculations danced in my head like mocking hyenas on the plains of Africa, I found myself slowing ever more.\u00a0 What was the point?\u00a0 I wasn&#8217;t going to make it in the time I needed.\u00a0 Once you miss, does it really matter if you&#8217;re over by a few seconds or a few minutes?\u00a0 This defeatist attitude worked its way through my psyche, emotionally and mentally draining forward momentum and pace, and proved physically debilitating.<\/p>\n<p>As is true every time I run Jacksonville&#8217;s marathon, the mile 24 detour off the main road into a neighborhood broke my spirits.\u00a0 I even had warned a fellow runner about it at the start line.\u00a0 &#8220;It&#8217;s a real mind fudge,&#8221; I told him, though I didn&#8217;t say &#8220;fudge.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>And yet, even with my passing vigilance, I mucked up big time in that suburban sprawl.\u00a0 Only I wouldn&#8217;t say &#8220;mucked.&#8221;\u00a0 My BQ time scrolled past on my watch and I still had a ways to go.<\/p>\n<p>I finished, though it felt little more than a stopping than an accomplishment.\u00a0 What had begun with promise and hope ended in ennui and worn-down shrugs of &#8220;whatever.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>That too is far too much of a mouthful, but it might be my description of the world in 2018.<\/p>\n<p>This was my last marathon of the year.\u00a0 I&#8217;m off for the next few weekends.\u00a0 Maybe that&#8217;s for the best.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_102018.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-29899\" src=\"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_102018-300x225.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"300\" height=\"225\" srcset=\"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_102018-300x225.jpg 300w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_102018-768x576.jpg 768w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_102018-1024x768.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_102018-660x495.jpg 660w, https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/12\/20181215_102018-450x338.jpg 450w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>Post Script: My new Samsung phone takes pretty good photos which is the primary reason I switched from Apple.\u00a0 Well, that and Apple&#8217;s ever increasingly crashing iOS made me want to scream into the darkness of space; no one would have been able to hear me but it might have made me feel better.\u00a0 When I was out with some friends the other night, it&#8217;s the most disappointed they&#8217;ve been in me; I know at times we&#8217;re all &#8220;the cult of Mac&#8221; but I didn&#8217;t realize how much I&#8217;d feel like a Suppressive Person (SP) in Xenu&#8217;s World.\u00a0 On top of that ostracizing, I&#8217;m having tech issues with uploading images to this website.\u00a0 So while I can see my selfie-finisher photo on my phone for some reason I can&#8217;t get it uploaded to runkevinrun.com.\u00a0 I&#8217;ll try again later but in the meantime, here&#8217;s a video of dogs in bear costumes:<\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" style=\"border: none; overflow: hidden;\" src=\"https:\/\/www.facebook.com\/plugins\/video.php?href=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.facebook.com%2Fthatgoldendoodle%2Fvideos%2F1982552862035093%2F&amp;show_text=0&amp;width=476\" width=\"476\" height=\"476\" frameborder=\"0\" scrolling=\"no\" allowfullscreen=\"allowfullscreen\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Given the season, the best way to sum up today might be this clip from &#8220;A Christmas Story&#8221; (1983): What had started out so well, ended off the rails.\u00a0 And while that may be a bit of a mouthful, it also could very well be the title of my autobiography. I&#8217;ve run Jacksonville before.\u00a0 You [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-29885","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/29885","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=29885"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/29885\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=29885"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=29885"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=29885"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}