{"id":31229,"date":"2019-03-23T15:29:47","date_gmt":"2019-03-23T19:29:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.runkevinrun.com\/?p=31229"},"modified":"2019-03-23T15:29:47","modified_gmt":"2019-03-23T19:29:47","slug":"panic-attack-in-the-city-of-angels","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/runkevinrun.com\/?p=31229","title":{"rendered":"Panic Attack In The City Of Angels"},"content":{"rendered":"

I was better. I am better. But I’m now feeling worse than I was feeling. Not worse than I was a week ago but worse than I was yesterday or the day before. My leg is mostly okay but there’s a pain in my back, a knot. I think it’s partially injury related and partially stress.<\/p>\n

I’m feeling anxious and uncertain. Maybe that’s the doom and gloom of a fizzling Mueller Report that won’t resolve any of the long-standing issues of the current geo-political climate. Maybe it’s fear of the unknown regarding tomorrow’s LA Marathon.<\/p>\n

I have a backup plan, such that the halfway point is just a few blocks from my house. I can always quit the race at the point and literally slink home. I don’t want to do that… as I would still need to go get my car down in Santa Monica. It’s the 10th Anniversary of the Stadium to the Sea course for LA. I’ve run this a few times. The logistics has us parking at Santa Monica (the sea) and shuttle busing back to the stadium for the start. To get to my car, I would need to run back to it… or I guess I could Uber there. Hmmm….<\/p>\n

My brother is running LA again this year after a hiatus. He’s feeling worried and anxious too, returning to run and unsure of himself. I think he’s nursing a lingering injury himself. But I know he’ll do great. He just needs to start. So do I.<\/p>\n

The waiting is a hard part. And it never gets any easier. I’ve run a lot of races in a lot of conditions, both environmental and personal. And tomorrow is going to be a pretty good day, if a bit warmer than ideal. But I just need tomorrow to come. I just need to start.<\/p>\n

Ugh. And I dread the multi-hour wait from the time it takes to get the shuttle bus to get to the stadium to waiting around for the start to happen.<\/p>\n

So much waiting. So much more time for anxiety, for psyching myself out.<\/p>\n

One foot in front of the other.<\/p>\n

I just hope my back doesn’t play up any more than it has.<\/p>\n

Sigh.<\/p>\n

Sigh sigh.<\/p>\n

Sigh sigh sigh.<\/p>\n

Breathe. Just breathe.<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

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